Dead of Winter

I've been taken over by this malaise. I feel like I'm still adrift in many ways - I haven't all my lessons planned out; I'm kind of "feeling" my way from one unit to the next; I feel connected to the students one day and completely foreign to them the next; inspired this week, despairing the next. 

Maybe it's the season, or maybe this is just the way teaching is with cyclic highs and lows. But to find the motivation to get back to a high... Ugh. I had all weekend (a 4-day weekend no less!) to catch up/plan/get ready to kick ass. And I didn't. I knocked a bunch stuff off my to-do list, but I found myriad excuses to avoid doing school-related work. Why? Am I not cut out for this? Am I just not into it? I don't believe that - I spent quite a long time talking to my mom this weekend about how to motivate students, so It's not that I'm not into it. Whatever it is, I could use a dose of motivation.